DARK HOLLOW
By Brian Keene

To watch thy wantonness weeping through
The tangled grove, the gnarled bole
Of the living tree that is spirit and soul
I am thy mate, I am thy man,
Goat of thy flock, I am gold, I am god
With hoofs of steel I race on the rocks
Through solstice stubborn to equinox
And I rave; and I rape and I rip and I rend
Everlasting, world without end...

—Aleister Crowley
“Hymn To Pan”

ONE

 

It was on the first day of spring that Big Steve and I saw Shelly Carpenter giving head to the hairy man.

Winter had been a hard one. Two books to write in five months’ time. It’s not something I recommend doing, if you can help it. There was a lot of pressure involved. The sales of my first novel, Heart of the Matter, caught my critics, my publisher, and even myself by surprise. It did very well—something a book of its kind isn’t supposed to do, especially a midlist, mass-market mystery paperback with no promotional campaign behind it other than a quarter-

page advertisement in one lone trade magazine. Publishers don’t buy a lot of advertising for midlist authors.

Suffice to say, I beat the odds. Flush with success, I quit my day job—only to learn that I wouldn’t be getting a royalty check for at least another year. We’d already blown through the advance: mortgage payments, credit card payments, car and truck payments, new living room furniture for my wife, Tara, and a new laptop for me. Plus, I’d spent quite a bit of my own cash traveling to book signings. Publishers don’t pay for midlist book signing tours either.

If I’d had an agent, maybe they would have explained the pay schedule to me. Or then again, maybe they wouldn’t have. Personally, I’m glad I don’t have an agent. They require fifteen percent of your earnings, and I was broke. Fifteen percent of shit is still shit.

I could have gone back to work part-time at the paper mill in Spring Grove, but I figured that if I applied myself to the writing, I’d be making about as much money as I would at the mill anyway, so I decided to follow what I love doing.

Tara still worked, insisting that she pay the bills while I stayed home and wrote. We needed the health insurance her company provided, but we couldn’t survive on just one income. Thus two more books for two different publishers in five months’ time, written just for the advance money, which would see us through the winter. Don’t get me wrong: It was a nice chunk of change, but when you totaled up the hours I spent writing, the advance for the next two novels came out to about a buck eighty an hour. And to make matters worse, they weren’t really stories that I wanted to write. They didn’t speak to me. I wasn’t passionate about them, and had lost my sense of wonder.

But we needed the money. Some people call that being a hack. I call it necessity.

The pressure got to me. I started smoking again—two packs a day—and drank coffee nonstop. I’d get up at five, make the daily commute from the bed to the coffeepot to the computer, and start writing. I’d work on one novel until noon, take a break for lunch, and then work on the second novel until late evening. After a full day of that I’d take care of business: reading contracts, responding to fan mail, checking my message board, giving interviews—all the other things that constitute writing but don’t actually involve putting words on paper—and go to bed around midnight. Then I’d get up the next morning and do it all over again. Seven days a week. The glamorous life of a writer.

During those rough months, I’d have gone insane if not for Big Steve. Tara brought him home from the pound to keep me company during the day. Big Steve was a mixed-breed mutt—part beagle, part rottweiler, part black Lab, and one hundred percent pussy. Despite his formidable size and bark, Big Steve was scared of his own shadow. He ran from butterflies and squirrels, fled from birds and wind-tossed leaves, and cowered when the mail-woman came to the door. When Tara first brought him home, he hid in the corner of the kitchen for half a day, shaking, with his tail between his legs. He warmed up to us fairly quickly, but he was still frightened by anything else. Not that he let it show. When something—it didn’t matter what, a groundhog or Seth Ferguson, the kid from across the street—stepped onto our property, the rottweiler inside him came out. He was all bark and no bite, but a robber would have had a hard time believing that.

Big Steve became my best friend. He listened while I read manuscript pages out loud to him. He’d lie on the couch and watch television with me when I took a break from writing. We liked the same beer, and the same food (because dog food just didn’t do it for Big Steve; he preferred a nice, juicy steak or some cheese-dripping pizza). Most important, Big Steve knew when it was time to drag my ass away from the computer. That was how we started our daily walks, and now they were a scheduled routine. Two per day—one at dawn, shortly after Tara left for work, and the second at sundown, before I started making dinner, when she was on her way home. Tara commuted to Baltimore every day, and it was at those times—when she first left and when she was due home—that the house seemed especially lonely. Big Steve had impeccable timing. He’d get me outside, and that always cheered me up.

Which brings us back to Shelly Carpenter and the hairy man.

When Tara left for work that Monday, the first day of spring, Big Steve stood at the door and barked: once— short and to the point.

Behold, I stand at the door and bark; therefore I need to pee.

“You ready to go outside?” I asked.

He thumped his tail in affirmation, and his ears perked up. His big, brown eyes shone with excitement. It didn’t take much to make Big Steve happy.

I clipped his leash to his collar (despite his fear of anything that moves, there is enough beagle in Big Steve to inspire a love of running off into the woods with his nose to the ground, and not coming home until after dark). We stepped outside. The sun was shining, and it felt good on my face. It was unseasonably warm, almost like summer. Tara and I had planted a lilac bush the year before, and the flowers bloomed, their scent fragrant and sweet. Birds chirped and sang to one another in the big oak tree in our backyard. A squirrel ran along the roof of my garage, chattering at Big Steve. The dog shrank away from it.

The long, cold winter had come and gone, and somehow I’d made it through and finished both manuscripts, Cold as Ice and When the Rain Comes. Now I could finally focus on the novel that I wanted to write, something other than a midlist mystery. Something big, with enough crossover potential to really get me noticed, maybe a novel about the Civil War. I felt good. Better than I had in months. The weather probably had something to do with that. Now it was spring, the season of rebirth and renewal and all that jazz. The time when nature lets the animal kingdom know that it’s time to make lots of babies. Spring, the season of sex and happiness. The rutting season.

Big Steve celebrated the first day of spring by pissing on the lilac bush, pissing on the garage, pissing on the sidewalk, and pissing twice on the big oak tree—which further infuriated the squirrel. The tree limbs shook as it expressed its displeasure. Big Steve barked at his aggressor, but only after he was safely behind me.

Our house is sandwiched between Main Street and a narrow back alley separating us from the community Fire Hall. The Fire Hall borders a grassy vacant lot and a neighborhood park, the kind with swings and monkey bars and deep piles of mulch to keep kids from skinning their knees when they come down the sliding boards. Beyond the playground lies the forest—roughly thirty square miles of protected Pennsylvanian woodland, zoned to prevent farmers and Realtors from cutting it all down and planting crops or building subdivisions. The forest is surrounded on all sides by our town, and the towns of Seven Valleys, New Freedom, Spring Grove, and New Salem. They all have video stores and grocery outlets and pizza shops (and our town even has a Wal-Mart), but you wouldn’t know it while standing inside the forest. Stepping through that tree line was like traveling through time to a Pennsylvania where the Susquehanna Indians still roamed free and the Germans, Quakers, and Amish were yet to come. At the center, at the dark heart of the forest, was LeHorn’s Hollow, source of central Pennsylvanian ghost stories and legends. Every region has such a place, and LeHorn’s Hollow was ours.

An artist friend of mine once visited us from California. Tara and I took him for a walk through those same woods, maybe half a mile inside, and he said something that has always stuck with me. He said that our woods felt different. I’d scoffed at the time, reminding him that his own state had the majestic redwood forests (Tara and I had spent part of our honeymoon walking amongst the coastal redwoods, and I’d wanted to live there ever since). But he’d insisted that our small patch of forest was different.

He said it felt primordial.

After Big Steve finished watering the yard, he tugged me toward the alley, his ears perked up and tongue lolling in hopeful anticipation.

“You want to go for a walk in the woods? You want to sniff for some bunnies?”

He wagged his tail with enthusiastic confirmation and tilted his head to the side.

“Come on, then.” I grinned. His mood was infectious.

It was impossible to feel anything other than good that morning.

He put his nose to the ground and led me forward. Shelly Carpenter jogged by on her regular morning run just as we reached the edge of the alley. Her red hair jiggled with each step. So did the rest of her. I didn’t know Shelly well, but we usually made small talk every morning as we passed by each other.

“Hey, Adam,” she panted, running in place. “Hi, Stevie!”

Big Steve wagged the tip of his tail and darted between my legs.

“Oh, come on, Stevie.” She turned off her iPod and removed her headphones. “Don’t be shy! You know me.”

Big Steve’s tail thumped harder, confirming that yes, he did indeed know her, but he shrank away further.

Shelly laughed. “God, he’s such a fraidy-cat.”

“Yeah, he is. Runs from his own shadow. We got him from the pound, and we think that his previous owner

may have beaten him or something.”

Her brow creased. “That’s so sad. What’s wrong with some people?”

I nodded. “Yeah, people like that should be shot. You out for your morning jog?”

“You know it. Isn’t it beautiful today?”

“It sure is. Spring is finally here.”

She looked up at the sun and squinted. “Spring is my favorite time of year.”

Her thin T-shirt was damp with sweat, and it clung to her bouncing breasts, revealing perfection. Her pert, dime-sized nipples strained against the fabric, hinting at the dark areolas beneath. Before she could catch me leering, I looked down. Big mistake. Her gray sweatpants had ridden up, hugging her crotch like a second skin. They too were wet with perspiration.

I quickly glanced back up. Shelly was staring at me with an odd expression.

“You okay, Adam?” She arched her eyebrows.

I cleared my throat. “Yeah. Sure. I was just thinking about my deadline.”

“Seems like you’re always daydreaming.”

“That’s the way it is with writers.”

“How’s the next book coming?”

“Good.” I smiled and bent down to pet Big Steve. Mistake number two. My face was inches from her groin. I imagined that I could smell her sweat—and something

else. Something intoxicating. The scent of a woman.

What the hell was wrong with me? It was like spring fever had turned me into a horn dog or something. My reactions were uncharacteristic, and I felt embarrassed.

Shelly placed a hand on her hip and arched her back. “What’s it going to be?”

I jumped. “W-what?”

“The book.” Her breasts bounced up and down as she began jogging in place again. “What’s it going to be about? Another mystery?”

“I’m not sure yet, actually. Maybe a Civil War novel, but I don’t know. Still working it out in my head. Whatever it turns out to be, it’s going to be big.”

“Big is good.” She licked her lips. Her glistening tongue looked so inviting.

I found myself wondering if she was aware that she was doing it. Her eyes seemed to glaze over, and she moved closer to me. Big Steve shifted nervously between my legs.

I cleared my throat again, breaking the spell.

“Well,” Shelly said, “I’d better let you get back to work, then. See you. Tell Tara that I said hi.”

“Okay. Will do. See you later.”

Shelly put her headphones back on, raised her hand and waved, and then blew Big Steve a kiss. We stared after her as she jogged down the alley and crossed over into the park. I watched her perfect ass moving beneath her sweatpants. Then she vanished from sight. The next time I saw that ass was when she was on her knees in front of the hairy man.

Big Steve panted heavily, then turned around and licked his balls.

I knew how he felt. My own erection strained uncomfortably against my jeans. Shuffling from one foot to another, I made sure nobody was watching. Then I reached down inside my pants and readjusted.

I took a deep breath, trying to stave off the guilt that welled up inside me. I’d never cheated on Tara, but the opportunities were there. The bigger my career got, the more of them there seemed to be. Not dozens of them, at least not yet. But there were several women who’d brought bourbon and crotchless panties to my book signings, or asked me to sign their breasts with Magic Marker. They sent me e-mails telling me how much my writing turned them on. Genre groupies. It was flattering and tempting and great for selling books. But it was surprising too, especially considering my modest success. I often wondered if it would get worse the bigger I got.

The thing I was most afraid of was myself—my own libido. Tara’s moratorium on sex affected me more than I let on. Yes, I loved her, but it was also a huge factor in our lives. I worried sometimes about cheating on her, was afraid that one day my traitorous libido would push me into it.

But I’d never done anything. And my erotic overreaction to Shelly’s workout attire left me feeling puzzled and guilty, as did her uncharacteristic flirting—if that was what it was. Had she really flirted, or was it my imagination?

I was pretty sure I’d read the situation correctly.

At the time I dismissed it all. Just something in the air. Spring fever, maybe.

But now I know just how right I was. There was something in the air—music and magic—and it affected us both.

Big Steve strained against his leash, urging me forward. We crossed the alley and walked into the field, heading in the same general direction that Shelly had gone. The grass was wet with dew. Steve put his nose to the ground, catching a scent. He started tracking.

In the oak tree’s branches two squirrels began humping away, celebrating the season by making babies.

I wondered if Tara and I would ever have a baby. Then I thought of the last miscarriage. Sadness welled up inside me, and I fought back sudden and surprising tears.

Steve tugged at the leash, chasing the bad memories away like the good dog that he was.

We walked on. The wet grass soaked my shoes and his paws. I took us around the playground. It wouldn’t do to have the neighborhood children come flying down the slide and land in a pile of dog shit. As if reading my mind, Big Steve dutifully dropped a pile in the grass. Wincing at the smell, I turned my nose away. The dog wagged his tail, and it seemed like he was grinning. Then we moved along.

The neighborhood came to life around us. Paul Legerski’s black Chevy Suburban roared down the alley, with Flotsam and Jetsam’s “Liquid Noose” blasting from the speakers. An oldie but a goodie. Paul had the bass turned up loud, just like the high school kids who did the same thing with their hip-hop. He blew the horn and waved, and I waved back. Paul and his wife, Shannon, were good people. One of my next-door neighbors, Merle, tried to start his lawn mower. It sputtered, stalled, and then sputtered again. Merle’s curses were loud and clear, and I chuckled. Then I heard the hiss of running water as another of my neighbors, Dale Haubner, a retiree, turned on his garden hose. A flock of geese flew overhead, honking out their springtime return from Southern climates. Honeybees buzzed in the clover growing next to the seesaw.

But beneath all of these familiar noises was another sound. At first I thought I’d imagined it. But Big Steve’s ears were up and his head cocked. He’d heard it too.

As we stood there it came again—a high, melodic piping. It sounded like a flute. Just a few short, random notes, and then they faded away on the breeze and weren’t repeated. I looked around to see if Shelly had heard it, but she was gone, as if the woods had swallowed her up.

In a way, I guess that was what happened.

The musical piping drifted toward us again, faint but clear. I became aroused again, and dimly wondered why. Shelly was gone, and there was nobody else in sight. I hadn’t been thinking about sex. It was weird.

Big Steve planted his feet, raised his hackles, and growled. I tugged the leash, but he refused to budge. His growl grew louder, more intense. I noticed that he had another hard-on as well.

“Come on,” I said. “It’s nothing. Just some kid practicing for the school band.”

Big Steve flicked his eyes toward me, then turned back to the woods and growled again.

The music abruptly stopped. There was no gradual fading away—it was as if someone had flipped a switch.

It occurred to me that it was Monday morning, and all the kids were in school, so it couldn’t have been a kid practicing. Then Steve’s haunches sagged and he returned to normal, his nose to the ground and his tail wagging with excitement over every new scent.

The narrow trail leading into the woods was hidden between two big maple trees. I don’t know who made the path, kids or deer, but Big Steve and I used it every day. Dead leaves crunched under our feet as we slipped into the forest, while new leaves budded on the branches above us. Flowers burst from the dark soil, lining the trail with different colors and fragrances.

I stopped to light a cigarette while Big Steve nosed around a mossy stump. I inhaled, stared up into the leafy canopy over our heads, and noticed how much darker it was, even just inside the tree line.

Primordial, I thought.

I shivered. The sun’s rays didn’t reach here. There was no warmth inside the forest—only shadows.

The woods were quiet at first, but gradually came to life. Birds sang and squirrels played in the boughs above us. A plane passed overhead, invisible beyond the treetops. Probably heading to the airports in Baltimore or Harrisburg. The sun returned, peeking through the limbs. But I couldn’t feel its warmth, and the rays seemed sparse.

Big Steve pulled at the leash, and we continued on. The winding path sloped steadily downward. We picked our way through clinging vines and thorns, and I spotted some raspberry bushes, which gave me something to look forward to when summer arrived. If I picked them, Tara would bake me a pie. Blue-tinted moss clung to the squat, gray stones that thrust up from the forest floor like half-uncovered dinosaur skeletons. And then there were the trees themselves—tall, stern, and proud.

I shivered again. The air was growing chillier, more like the normal temperature for this time of year. Stepping over a fallen log, I wondered again who’d made the path, and who used it other than Big Steve and myself. The most we’d ever gone was a mile into the forest, but the trail continued on well past that. How deep did it run? All the way out to the other side? Did it intersect with other, less-used pathways? Did it go all the way to LeHorn’s Hollow?

I mentioned the hollow earlier. I’d been there only once, when I was in high school and was looking for a secluded spot to get inside Becky Schrum’s pants. It was our first date, and I remember it well—1987, my senior year. We saw a Friday the 13th flick (I can’t remember which one), and when it was over we cruised around in my ’81 Mustang hatchback, listening to Ratt’s Out of the Cellar and talking about school and stuff.

Eventually we found ourselves on the dirt road that led to the LeHorn farm. The farmhouse and buildings had stood vacant for three years. Nelson LeHorn had killed his wife, Patricia, in 1985, and then disappeared. He hadn’t been seen since, and his children were scattered across the country. His son, Matty, was doing time for armed robbery in the Cresson state penitentiary up north. His daughter, Claudia, was married and living in Idaho. And his youngest daughter, Gina, was teaching school in New York. None of them had ever returned home, as far as I knew. Because the old man was legally still alive, the children were unable to sell the property, and Pennsylvania law prevented the county or the state from seizing it. So it sat, boarded up and abandoned, providing a haven

for rats and groundhogs.

The LeHorn place sat in the middle of miles of woodlands, untouched by the explosive development that had marred other parts of the state, and surrounded by a vast expanse of barren cornfields, the rolling hills not worked since the murder and LeHorn’s disappearance. In the center of the fields, like an island, was the hollow.

I’d parked the car near the house, and Becky and I had talked about whether or not it was haunted. And like clockwork she was snuggled up against me, afraid of the dark.

I remember glancing toward the hollow as we made out. Even in the darkness I could see the bright yellow no trespassing and posted signs hanging from a few of the outer tree trunks.

Becky let me slip my hand into her jeans, and her breathing quickened as I delved into her wetness with my fingers and rubbed her hard nipples beneath my palms. But then she cut me off. Not wanting to show my annoyance and disappointment, I’d suggested we walk to the hollow. I hoped that if her level of fright increased, her chastity might crumble.

The hollow was a dark spot created by four sloping hills, leading down to a place where no chain saw roared and no ax cut. A serpentine creek wound through its center. We heard the trickling water, but never made it far enough inside to see the stream.

Because something moved in the black space between the trees . . .

Something big. It crashed toward us, branches snapping like gunshots beneath its feet. Becky screamed and gripped my hand tight enough to bruise it. We got the hell out of there. We never saw the thing, whatever it was, but we heard it snort—a primal sound, and I can still hear that sound today. A deer, probably, or maybe even a black bear. All I know is it scared the shit out of me, and I’ve never been back to the hollow since.

Big Steve brought me back to the present by stopping suddenly in the middle of the trail. He stood stiff as a board, legs locked and his tail tucked between them. The growl started as a low rumble deep down inside him, and got louder and louder as it spilled out. I’d never heard him make a sound like this, and wondered if I’d mistakenly clipped someone else’s dog to the leash. He’d never gotten this worked up over something. He sounded vicious. Brave. Or terrified.

Suddenly, as if summoned from my memories, something crashed through the bushes toward us. Big Steve’s hair stood on end, and his growl turned into a rumbling bark.

“Come on, Steve. Let’s go!” My heart raced in my chest. I tugged the leash, but he refused to budge. He barked again.

The noise drew closer. Twigs snapped. Leaves rustled.

The branches parted.

I screamed.

The deer, a spotted fawn, leaped over a fallen tree, darted across the path, and vanished again into the undergrowth, its white tail flashing. It looked about as scared as we were.

“Jesus fucking Christ!” I gasped for breath, trying to get my racing pulse under control.

Big Steve, meanwhile, had ducked behind me as soon as the fawn emerged. I glanced down at him. He looked back up at me with those soft brown eyes, and then

thumped the tip of his tail as if embarrassed.

“You should be embarrassed,” I told him, and he lowered his ears and looked away.

My heart still hammered in my chest and my temples throbbed. I felt half-sick from the adrenaline surge.

Big Steve whined.

I shrugged. “Okay, maybe we both should be embarrassed. Is that better?”

Big Steve flipped his tail in agreement and then sulked out from between my legs. He sniffed around where the deer had been. Then his tail wagged steadily as he got his courage back. Deciding that it was all right to continue on our way, he pulled me forward.

I laughed. The brave midlist mystery writer and his faithful canine companion, scared shitless by a deer. Not just any deer, but a baby deer, at that.

Ababy...

Unbidden, thoughts of Tara’s last miscarriage came to me again. My stomach ached, and I blinked away tears.

The woods seemed even colder.